Thursday, January 16, 2014

January 2014


assalamualaikum buat 'droppers' yang sudi singgah post ni.

first and foremost, let recite our grateful to our Creator, Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala.. syukur alhamdulillah, segala puji hanya buat-Mu allah, tuhan pencipta seluruh kehidupan. Dia pemilik segala kehidupan, penentu segala takdir, Yang Maha Hebat, Maha Kaya, Maha Sempurna, Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Pengasih..

satu-satunya tuhan yang berhak disembah, hanya kepada Dia tempat bergantung, hanya kepada Dia segala urusan itu dikembalikan, Dia Yang Maha Sempurna, Maha Melihat, Maha Mendengar, Maha Mengetahui segala isi hati, Maha Pendengar doa lagi Maha Penerima Taubat. Allahu Akbar. tuhan yang maha besar. Engkau Maha Sempurna. Maha Baik Hati, Maha Tinggi.

tak tertulis dengan perkataan dan tak tergambar dengan kata-kata bagaimana perasaan yang aku rasa saat ini. pokoknya, terima kasih allah untuk SEGALA nikmat yang Engkau berikan.

selawat dan salam buat junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad Sallallahu'alaihiwasallam, allahuma solli 'ala saiydina muhammad wa 'ala 'ali saiyidina muhammad, salam buat kaum keluarga Baginda, para sahabat dan umat islam yang terawal.


panjang jugak intro kali ini. huhu..

saat ini, akhirnya, dengan secara rasminya tamat sudah pengajian semester SATU aku sebagai pelajar tahun akhir. ahah. bahana nya, tak tergambar dengan kata-kata. tapi terluah melalui air mata. hahaha. 

begini rupanya bergelar pelajar tahun akhir CE

walau payah dirasa, walau perit untuk ditelan, yakin dan percayalah bahawasanya, setiap takdir yang ditentukan oleh allah itu, adalah yang terbaik untuk  aku dan engkau. its simply not the studies being the matters.. but.. the environment of those studies and the added matters that make you feel the bitterness and hardship. somehow. allahu robbi!

banyak ibrah/pengajaran yang allah bagi. banyak nikmat yang allah hulur. selagi hanya kepada Dia kita bergantung.

it sounds mean/harsh if i directly said that, i'm getting faith to just rely on Him and none others, is it? yet, its true beb! the environment moulds me. from what people did onto me, intentionally or unintentionly more or less it reflect or affect myself. it hurts you know. seems like life does unfair to you. everyone in this world did unfair dealt with you.. the feeling of people keep on taking advantage on you subsequently turns you into someone else perhaps. naudzubillah. i seeking far for that.

and when the conscious state of mind begin to 'slow talks', the evil spirits release bit by bit. and the positive charges came in. i relieved with it. i'm grateful as 'iman' drive me to the real state of being. such those feelings are contemporary. those are not such a big problems. not such a burdens. those treat you with no harm. those are the colourful of MY LIFE. the unique one. the selected one. as i reflected back my life, those adventures and challenging trials and tribulations drive me to the Creator of this world! make me closer to Him. 

allahu robbi. the feeling of 'kebergantungan itu hanya kepada allah. hanya dia' realllyyy make me delightful and happy. no words can describe that feelings at all. somehow, syukur allah. segala puji hanya buat-Mu allah.

and right then, the honour habits of The Messenger, Nabi Muhammad SAW, to forgive people whose doing bad onto you, penetrates my heart. to be frank, it really hard to do. the mouth speaks faster than the heart. the inner part still cant easily done that forgiveness. 

but why it is so hard?? 
am i sooo perfect? 
am i never did bad on others?? 

and that is the time, when i remind of the moment which i am really really really seek and beg to allah, to forgive all of my wrong doings.. the feeling of great regret fulfill the body, very horrible. i am really hope and praying that allah forgive me for all my sins. so i put those feeling into my current situation. i should put no revenge and anger on them. forgive them for all. keep pray to allah and let allah settle those things on them. it worthy me much better. perhaps.

people can say anything they want as they are not in our shoes.
what the matter is the way how we handle the trials.
believe and have faith in allah.. that everything happens that He ordained for you is really.. the very best for your own sake! be calm.. and positive.. and put great in patience. keep on praying to Him to make you stronger and guidance you to further the rest of your life. insyaAllah, He wont upset you. He wont let you down. Allah is sooo sweeeeettttt! believe in Him. keep obeying His orders. put more effort and pray. may allah let you for the very best!

i wish you all the best.
may allah ease us everything.
may allah grant us His syurga.
may allah fate us for husnul khotimah.

allahu akbar!
allahuma solli 'ala saiyidina muhammad wa'ala alihi wasohbihi wasallim.
i seeking an apology for every single thing.
live positively. spread love widely. 

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